x_juli's Xanga

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 14:43:33 GMT

I think i just learn who are my friends.
People who i would feel comfortable with.
People who i would never doubt.
And people who i can be as truthful and honest to.
Yes, maybe i should "grow up".
But maybe its all of you who should see that growing up
would only make you trust less,
know less and be more suspicious.
Because, if that is all there is to growing up.
I don't ever wanna grown up.

So don't take my friendship for granted.
As they say "your best friends are those from school".
There are several people like you out there.
They would be happy to pretend to be your friend.
After all, thats all you do anyways.
But who am i to judge, you are old enough to.
If you truly believe that i would be dumb enough
to not notice all the bitching you do behind me,
all the complaining, all the backstabbing and
all the fake smiles you give me.
I'm disappointed.
Because although, we haven't been close recently,
we used to.
So don't fool your self and say that,
"yeah, everyone else has changed so much and I don't think I have."
Because you have, and no matter how much you deny,
and it shows on you.
You are less kind, less trustworthy,
more greedy, more selfish and more fake.
No matter how many times you put on that mask everyday,
it still shows your hideous face.

I don't require you to even know my name.
After all, the only time you call me is when you need something.
I regret so much because of you.

Good bye, go find your "friends".

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 07:44:08 GMT

to hayyan: its not who you think it is - -"
seriously and if i did "like" you know who b4
NO WAY ANYMORE
EW. yea i just got so over anything if there was anything =]

i completely take back what i said 2 days ago
ARGHHHHH
so yea. im bored
and more exams 2morow
ahhhhh sigh i love exams

...
dont you?

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 06:58:52 GMT

To hayyan: hahah maybe it is =]
To sauwai: OMG i know, no one xangas any more.. kinda sad -_-"
To lorraine: haha yea i was bored the other day and decided to just write something for the sake of it:P

hmmm its been ages since anyone wrote a blog of their day
or a just a bunch of quotes which they found sooo cute :P
kinda sad really, everyone just writes these into the notes section of facebook
which is now over polluted with applications
i get a million a day - -"
Soon facebook would be "out" and something else would replace it until that becomes boring again
so many people added facebook cuz because everyone was.
wasnt it ok already when everyone had xanga?
now its.. like msn ... but slower
yea so what you can have.. free gifts - -"?
its still all online.
plus, its less time consuming on xangas cuz you dont need to do so much
ahh well. people like to do things everyone else wants to..
maybe xanga would be popular again... haha i havnt been on for so long..
i forgot how to write a "weblog":P

thx for actually "propping"?
you got the.. xanga email thing yea?
haha i still have the subscription, just never checked it =]
cuz someone* always writes stupid entries that noone wants to read :P
i wonder who...

juli

:)

Friday, November 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 11:00:30 GMT

wow... i dont even know...
it was such a long time ago,
last time i wrote here...
so much has happened.
i think ive grown up more
understood more
and believe more
ive learnt to love life and
ive found someone who loves it with me
though were just friends
it feels right and we are always there for each other
thank you..<3

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sun, 20 May 2007 10:33:10 GMT

nooooo i think im getting addicted to facebook - -
oh wels, add me if i no u :P
later<3

feeling: [blehhh cuz of the c/w that is just waitin for me 2 do - -]

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Wed, 02 May 2007 08:06:50 GMT

Create your own Friend Test here

hahah see how well you know me =]
edit mebbe later.. if im actually bothered
juli<3
xx

feeling: [happy & tired (im always tired aren't i?)

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Tue, 01 May 2007 03:52:23 GMT

hahah i havnt updated since eva :P
thx 4 the props =]
im seriously dyin here - -
i hav no idea how to do the bio c/w for 2moz
and the media hwk also 4 2moz is confusing
bleh xP
4 those who know that i ripped teh back of my ear lol
i took it out again (ahahha) and i took 10 minutes to pu t it back in :P
no ones online - -'
so bored
and so busy*

noooo i dun wanna do the 5th floor challenge on friday - -
im gonna b the worse in my group
and i heard that there is gona b an eating competition
neone who knows me well knows that i eat slower than.. uh.. a reli slow eating animal...- -
and i basically im gonna look like an idiot - - lol:P on well
has neone else tried to go on the community service thing?
the website doesnt work - -
and we have to chose starting on thurs
i wanna go teh vet thing but its one place and i dont reli wanna go my self - -
opps gtg do bio
arghhhh
im dyin - -

later =]
juli<3

feeling: [drowning in hwkkk and c/w - -']

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 01:58:52 GMT

lol i havnt updated for agessss
not too much has happened in the last few weeks lol
uhh sze sze came and we had a day out w/ hayyan, ven and sau
:P lol, uh went sticker pixxing, ice skating and just looking around
hmm took very random pix and fell on the *ice cold floor* a few times
teaching hayyan 2 ice skate didnt reli work but it was fun neways..=]
sze sze and sau were soooo good = = blehx
hmm.. 2morrow, i have health check up = =
w/ all the retarded questionnaire to fill in
with questions like: "are you happy?", "do u have friends?"
"have you had suicidal thoughts?", "do you want to die?"
argh very sdp XP
i didnt grow at all except sideways hehe
im sooo shorrtttttttt = ='
neways, uhh school starts next week and i still have about 3 months till
i go to canada!!! cant wait hehehehhe
still have loads of hwk
and dying = = cant b bothered to doooo~
um... didnt reli bother to go outside hehe
bleh i fell asleep yesterday doing my media hwk
haha shows how boring it is =] lol
i cant believe how lucky* i am to have french first day back

i love roses <3

sky full of star.. =]

holding on

haha

lol

bleh mebbe edit later... =]
juli<3
xx

feeling:[tired and happyyyy<3]

Friday, March 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 12:59:42 GMT

THE GREATEST IRONY OF LOVE ;
loving the right person at the wrong time.
having the wrong person when the time is right.
and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life..

haha funny, not that its true for my or nething
so dont think im emo or get freaked out again = = lol
message not to the majority of the population =]

everyone's at teh sevens = =
im so boreddd but i finally finished teaching english AND peer tutoring =]=]
even though im glad its finally finished, i kinda miss the kids
they were pretty cute sometimes ><'
yes, even the suicidal kid=]
hmmm the volunteering guy that also helps out is gonna miss venus so much =]
(truce remember??? venus?)
hmm neways
szeszes coming lol cant wait
finally teh holis
gonna sleep til 10 everyday
heheh

hehe pinky promise

2 perfect 4 words 4 venus <3333

i always though sauwai is reli pretty in this picture (& 1/2 a million others- lol)

Surveys<3

name 7 people.
1. Venus
2. Hayyan
3. Sauwai
4. Natalie
5. Hilary
6. Karen
7. Kaz

how did you meet 4? uhh at school lol
when is 8's birthday?
why is 1 listed first? cuz shes nice lol
when is the last time you saw 5? umm today at school
whats your best memory with 2? umm lol loads=]
why do you like 6? cuz shes nice and all that:P
were you and 3 in classes together? uh we still r in french ...= =
would you date 6? mmm shes a girl.. = =
how long have you known 7? um since yr 7
whats the last movie you saw with 4? neva saw a film w/ her but planning lol 4 da holis
have you lied to 2? hmm lol yes xP
who is 6's boy/girl friend? uh i dunt think she has one =] saving the first for someone? (coughcriscoughcoughwong) LMAO
does 5 have siblings? nope
have you slept over at 1's house? no= =
how old is 7? 15 (i think... soz kaz - -)
do you know 4's phone number? on my phone so yes
how would you react if 3 dated 1? i would lmao ahahhahah

hm still bored but wutevaa

last few things:

LMAO so funny
check some more funny stuff like that at engrish.com

:P cyaz laters =]
juli<3

xoxo

feeling:[happy but my arms STILL hurts T.T]

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 10:42:23 GMT

Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends . . . the I miss yous . . .And the I LOVE yous . . . And the What are we doing tonights? . . . somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing and growing And the skipping classes, the studying for tests, And the pretending to be studying for tests, And the downright not studying for tests, I forgot . . . I forgot what it meant to cry . . . I forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy . . . I f o r g o t that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart . . . And that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok . . . I forgot that you cant just forget the past in fear of the future . . . I forgot that you cant control falling in love . . . And that you cant make yourself fall in love . . . I learned . . . I learned that I can love . . . I learned that its ok to mess up . . . And its ok to ask for help . . . And its ok to feel like crap . . . I learned! its ok to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day . . . That somehow they'll make it all better . . . I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just cant have . . . I learned that the greatest thing about middle school isn't going to be who is the most popular or going to be the parties . . . Or the drinking not even the hook-ups . . . ! Its the friendships, which means taking chances . . . I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to TALK out . . . I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing . . . And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better . . . But, basically, I just learned that my friends, Both old and new, Are the most important people to me in the world . .

=] just came back from horse riding
very fun :P
i was riding Bobby this time hehe she was so sweet><
did jumping ok la
but it was soooo funn lol
nearly forgot to do jumping position XP
but passed both fences hehe
hmm Bobby did the Jude thing [from tun mun]
she was charging as soon as we turned the corner,
towards to the fences
bleh xP and i was supposed to do it in trot but just went straight into canter
did the last jump without one stirrup and the second one i just kinda hobbled over it
bleh, mais overall it was very fun lol
cant wait til next week hehehe ><
at least i hav volleyball to look forward 2 on mondayyyy
lol hmm gtg eat dinner =]
bb xx

juli<3

feeling: [tired, happi and still drowning in tests and hwk XP]